On bonding with the Munchkin

I don't know what made me think of it the other night but I remembered the moment I really bonded with Noelle. It wasn't right after she was born, although I loved her instantly, and I think for most moms that's normal. It was when I gave up trying to get breastfeeding to work. BF was HORRIBLE for me - no milk would come out, just blood (TMI) but I felt like I HAD to. I realized that we were both totally stressed out and it wasn't doing us any good. She also wasn't gaining weight and the ped let me off the hook. So, I layed down on my bed, propped up on pillows. I sat Noelle on my belly and leaned her against my bent knees so we were face-to-face and I gave her a nice bottle. She stared at me and we were both so calm, so comfortable. That was the moment I really bonded with my daughter and I don't want to forget it.

21 Days

I read last week that it takes 21 days to make or break a habit. Last week wasn't a good week for making habits, such as drinking water. I did not even come close to reaching that goal. It's a new week though so I'm going to drink at least 24 oz of water each day. Water might not be working but the 1 fast food per week is pretty set I think. I haven't had trouble with that one. I did meet all my other goals last week. I made a call that I've been putting off for a long time. I have a tentative diagnosis and will be meeting with my other doc before making a final determination as to proper treatment. In the meantime, I've been researching the diagnosis and learning all I can about treatment. I'm actually quite proud of myself.

I had great fun this weekend baking for Valentine's day. I finally made Hot Chocolate on a Stick and it turned out great! Making homemade marshmallows was so easy that I'll do it again. I'm thinking green shamrock marshmallows for St. Patrick's Day next month.

So, this week...
24 oz of water
Get outside for at least 15 minutes per day
Finish apron

That's really it for this week. I'm not really feeling "goalish" (yes, that's a word). I feel more like I just need to survive this week.

I want to remember...

That I can bribe the munchkin to do just about anything with a Sharpie.

Go Pack Go!

Ok, now that I got that off my chest ;). It's been an interesting week. Very challenging at work but home has been pretty good although I feel terribly lazy. My goals this week are to help me focus on my mental and physical health. But first, a recap:
1. put clothes away - done (yeah, I cheated...what of it?) - done

2. Drink at least 24 oz of water each day - done
3. No more than one fast food meal and no SB - done. I did have one meal yesterday morning.
4. review or return sleep books - Ummm, yeah, now I can't even find the books!
5. finish the apron...if the mood strikes (gotta take the pressure off this one) - nope but I've made progress
6. clean master bedroom and bath - I cleaned the master bath but only picked up the bedroom. JT has everything pulled away from the walls in there so he can (FINALLY) finish the base board. Really no point in cleaning until that is done.

This week:
Continue to drink at least 24 oz water/day and only one FF meal.
Find the freakin' sleep books
Make the call
Baking for V-day at school
No unnecessary purchases (this one is going to be really tough)
Apply to one new job

As my week last week drew on, I found myself wanting to go shopping more and more. Shopping is my drug and it's how I ended up bankrupt at 21 years of age. It's still a fight for me a lot of the time and I am great at rationalization. I did buy myself a pair of jeans but that makes only 2 pair of jeans for me. Really, I spend more money on the munchkin because it takes some of the guilt off - wait, I'm rationalizing again :)

I think I'll go sew while I wait for the Packer game to start.

I want to remember...

I caught Basil in the yard eating deer poop so I was yelling at him to "stop eating the deer poop". Noelle asks me "why is he eating reindeer poop?"

A man jogging through the park without his shirt on...Noelle says "aaaaaa...mommy, he's NAKED!"

The wonderful songs she makes up and how very silly she is.