I want to remember...

Riding in the car with the munchkin when Bruno Mars' song, Grendae, came on. She picked up on the line:

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did

She turned to me and asked, "why did they throw it in the trash?" "We don't throw our hearts in the trash." I told her she was right, we didn't throw hearts in the trash. I asked her, "where are our hearts". Her response...in our tummies and they have to stay in our tummies, not in the trash."

I want to remember...

The munchkin was playing with the cards from her Elmo computer. As the handed them to me she said, "here's one million dollars, two million dollars, and three million dollars". So I asked what we should spend the money on. Her answer: "corn, applesauce, and more applesauce". Guess I better stock up.

In other news I'm still feeling totally undisciplined and not doing anything about it. But I've started some new meds that really seem to be making a difference for me health-wise. That's exciting I must say. Maybe after I hit the right dosage I'll be able to bring some other things together. I do know that I need to get back to my goals. Although it's already Wednesday I'm going to set some goals for the end of the week:

1. 24 or more ounces of water per day
2. No fast food
3. Yoga at least 2 times this week (guess I better get 1 tonight)

My mom is coming to town and I am so looking forward to it but that means some more in-depth cleaning so that's on the list too.

So, yeah, that Lent thing

still no idea and it's Ash Wedensday. I realize that I've been given the perfect opportunity to get closer. I've been chosen as a member of our Church's Rector Search Committee. More than that, I've been selected as Chairperson. I'm quite honored and although this process will most certainly last beyond 40 days I think I'm ready for it. I'm not sure this "counts" but it's what I'm going with.

Lent

I've never "done" Lent before. I didn't grow up in a church that did that. I knew about it b/c I went to church with my Dad during summers and school breaks. Last year our Rector (who I miss terribly) pointed out that it's not just about giving something up. We could add activities that bring us closer to God (extra prayer, meditation, etc). So, Lent starts on March 9 and I'm trying to decide what to do, if anything. I'm trying to make some life changes and this could be just the kick-start I need. I'm thinking I will commit to my 15 minute yoga program once per day...no matter what. It really brings me peace and comfort, not to mention the physical benefits. The other thought running through my head is severly limiting my sugar intake. I did this on Weight Watchers Core plan, I know I can do it, I just don't want to. I guess I've got a few days to figure it out.

Self-Discipline...

I don't haz it. JT and I went to an introductory course for Financial Peace University. We need to do something and we've used this system before with success. However, the format wasn't right for us. On the way home, he mentioned that is just takes discipline. I was reminded, once again, how much self-discipline I lack. The only time I've been disciplined was with school, specifically college and beyond. What's that about? I am a lazy person, it's true, I am but is it more than that? And, is there a way to change? I'm sure there is but where do I start? This has all been rolling around in my head for a few days and I think that's where it will stay for now. I need to chew on it, research it, make peace with it before I decide which area of my life to tackle self-discipline. Gosh, what fun!