On bonding with the Munchkin

I don't know what made me think of it the other night but I remembered the moment I really bonded with Noelle. It wasn't right after she was born, although I loved her instantly, and I think for most moms that's normal. It was when I gave up trying to get breastfeeding to work. BF was HORRIBLE for me - no milk would come out, just blood (TMI) but I felt like I HAD to. I realized that we were both totally stressed out and it wasn't doing us any good. She also wasn't gaining weight and the ped let me off the hook. So, I layed down on my bed, propped up on pillows. I sat Noelle on my belly and leaned her against my bent knees so we were face-to-face and I gave her a nice bottle. She stared at me and we were both so calm, so comfortable. That was the moment I really bonded with my daughter and I don't want to forget it.