That's been me. I wanted sympathy from everyone. I want to whine about how much I hurt, about how broke I am, about anything that made me worse-off than other people. What the heck is that about? It's no wonder I was feeling depressed. Truth is, I do hurt and I don't know why but I do know there are things I can do to feel better. I've started my PT again and I'm doing some research. I've gotten tests and am waiting to hear the results. Honestly, I'm a little worried but really trying to focus on it not being bad news. Truth is, our finances are tight but I'm not helping so that's a change I can make to do or be better. So really I'm not that bad off.
So, I took a day to be lazy. I've watched a lot of TV and floated around in the pool. It's was so beautiful...this sub-tropical place I live. And I feel better. But then I come inside and feel like I should be doing something...it actually makes me feel anxious. Anyway, I cleaned the kitchen and am now recording some memories about the wonderful things the munchkin says :)
Soon, I'll head to the library then pick up the munchkin...maybe I'll stop and get coffee first.
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